deirdre83

10:11 pm: Comics
If you're one of those persons who don't like to draw but you still would like to make your own comics you can visit www.makebeliefscomix.com.

Tags: comics

07:29 pm: I'm Back
"Wir wollen tanzen gehen
Wir wollen tanzen gehen
und Leute sehen"

This is what my roomie is singing right now. :)

Tags: song

08:14 am: Working on a Sunday
It's Sunday morning. I'm working. What can I say...I'm tired. Hope the weather will be ugly since I'm stuck here. And I'm a bit bored too...

Tags: sunday, work

10:38 pm: Spring is finally here
It's really Spring now. It was about +17 degrees today and it started raining. It's beginning to be green outside. It's nice to be alive.

05:13 pm: Happy Easter!
It's Easter, but doesn't feel like it. I'm working every day except today and I have so much homework to do. I'm bored to death with all these assignments. BORED! Would like to do something funny.

Some days are so funny. A lot happens and you laugh a lot. Then these boring days come and you just wanna die 'cause it's so dead-boring. A pile of assignments on your desk a ton of books to read for school (and I'm such a slow reader). And all you can think about is good-looking men now that it's Spring and if you're single like me .

Have read Macbeth and am going to read Othello soon. Don't know if I'll manage to read Othello since I have such a jealous nature...

04:52 pm: Never Summer again?
It's still sold outside, like -10 Celcius or something. I can't see any signs of Spring, other than that the sun shines longer/the day is longer now than before. I like the sun, it gives me energy. But like I said, no signs of Spring. Feels like Winter's come to stay forever. Hope not! I'm not really a Winter-person...

Doing home-work. Sigh! Struggling with a translation-assignment. Feeling frustrated.

Have to go to work in the evening. Feels like I never really have a day to myself. And I miss Summer. Thinking about it every day. I believe that people have to have things to look forward to. Otherwise life wouldn't be worth living. We have to think about things that we can't have RIGHT NOW. And when we get them, we start dreaming about something else in stead. That's how it works.

Some people say - actually a teacher once said it to me when I was like 10 years old - that we can never be happy in a certain moment, but that happiness is to look forward to something, and that we can never reach happiness really. We can't hold it in our hands. We never get to the state of mind that means 'happy'. But I don't think that. I think my poor teacher was wrong and probably unhappy. I believe you can feel happiness in a particular moment. If we want to, if we really try to. For me, when I really feel happy, I also feel allmost a sort of ache inside of me. Perhaps it's longing for something, but it's in that particular momemt, right there...Not in the past and not in the future, but right there.

03:47 pm: Cute guy's back
My life is a blurr. I thought I'd forgotten about the sweet guy at work, but he came back yesterday, so now he's all I can think about. Perhaps because it didn't work out with the other guy. He thought that I was too young. I guess he meant childish. I know that I can be pretty frank and I laugh a lot. Perhaps I made an childish impression by being myself? :) Well, anyway, he was nice and polite. And I didn't think him too old - on the contrary! 

So the funny guy and I make jokes and laugh a lot. We can talk normally too. And he's the cutest I've ever seen, I swear!

05:48 pm: Jan Guillou, Liza marklund & Kjell Westö
Now I'm reading another book: Jan Guillou: Tjuvarnas marknad. I like Guillou better than Liza Marklund. Don't like her writing-style. She only writes about problems in the family and in the marriage. Don't like reading about such things. I guess I'm childish. I just think that there are enough problema in life as it is. And I don't need learning new nasty names to call my husband, if I had one.

Talking about husbands, I have allmost forgotten all about the funny guy for the moment. Haven't seen him. But I've actually met another guy, whose handsom and very nice. It's only, that I don't know exactly what he thinks about me. He's got quite a poker-face.

Back to Jan Guillou. He's got a humourous writing-style. And he sounds like a typical man. Still I understand his thoughts better than for instance Marklund's. He writes more old-fashioned and she writes very modern. I hate modern. Too much speed. Guess I'm growing old...

And about Kjell Westö. He's got his good parts, but then again he has an annoying habit of repeating things, like he hadn't enough imagination.  And he writes too much about bad things in the family too. Apparently I don't like reading about family-stuff. And I hate reading about devorces. the families in Drakarna were so modern: kids doing drugs, fathers working night and day etc. Hey, there's that word "modern" again! I REALLY hate modern. Sorry Westö! But I'm open for a discussion if you like. :)

02:36 pm: Finally winter
Today it's snowing. That's a rare site these days in Finland.

Not heared anything from the cute, funny guy. He's not working now, there's somebody else on his post right now. I think that he'll come back in less than a week...or I hope so. He should, if everything goes as it has always done. But the problem is that he worked a longer shift last time, which is pretty unusual and that might mean that hes collegue will do the same, which would mean that he isn't coming back in less than a week. Hope not! :)

I like my work. It's fun to work with people and now that I'm getting to know everyone better it only gets better.

School doesn't really interest me at the moment...but I still have to read some thick books. Right now I'm reading my second book by a Finnish-swedish author; Drakarna över Helsingfors, by Kjell Westö. Westö can be funny at times.

02:15 pm: A funny guy
Yep, now I've been informed that he is pobably engaged. PROBABLY.

And why wouldn't he be? He's tall, handsom, has cute, brown eyes and a nice salary...

Not bad, but does he have a brain? That I don't know yet. So far we have only joked about things. haven't had a real conversation. I must be without brains to allmost fall for a guy who only makes jokes... :)

I'm not alone. It has happened before. And jokes are nice...to some extent. Well, I guess we'll continue joking then.

01:21 pm: The cute guy at work
Just came from work. There's a cute guy, who likes to joke with people. We have a joke too, he and I. He is very handsom and quite extrovert, so it's easy to fall for him.

But I fear that he is taken, so I'll just continue to be his friend. Continue with the joke. Continue with my work as usual, until I hear that he is not taken... :)

I would really like to know...

08:03 pm: Lars Sund and others
Haven't had time to write in my journal, but today I'll do so. Have not much to say. Been reading Lars Sund's Colorado Avenue, seems to be a REAL book, because I enjoy it and I think Sund seems like an intelligent writer. The main character is a woman and I think he has (so far) managed to write realistically from a woman's perspective. But I've only read 80 pages so far and there's like 300 more to go.

Another book I've red was German: Der Vorleser, by Bernhard Schlink. It was an interesting book and had  to do with Nazism.

Right now I'm sitting in my broth's room, have just cleaned my paren's house and will soon be on my way to my own place. The weather is wet and warm, +7 degrees. It's dark almost from morning to evening, some kind of depressing grey light. But I'm looking forward to Christmas. Feeling like a little child again, planning what present to buy for my broth and my parents and perhaps myself. :) Looking forward to Christmas"parties" at work and at school (the German departement).

So...now I'll just do something and then go home...

06:01 pm: Winter

Been reading this Norwegian novel Morderen fra moerket, by  Stein Riverton.  It's a crime-novel and a bit old-fashioned, reminds me of an old ghost story. I enjoy reading it, there's something special about it.

The winter is here, it's snowing and about 0 degrees. Feels cozy to sit inside and watch it, but brrrr, I'd not want to go outside right now. Longing for Summer again, but there's always something beautiful about snow, though.

Feel hungry, going to eat some cake. Guess i should eat some real food...

10:20 pm: Keira-icons
Found some very nice icons made by a person with the username Mefan. Loved those of Keira.

Today it was +13 degrees and cloudy, pretty warm to be Finland.

My broth called about a bed, he's going to buy one. I tried to give him some advice, but i guess he's got his own ideas.

Still have 5 more pages left of Kafka. Have to finish it today...

07:25 pm: Die Verwandlung
I am reading Franz Kafka's Die Verwandlung right now in a literature course and the book is better than I expected. Eventhough this is my 5th year at the university and haven't read/started reading it until now. That's because I've had a phobia for all kinds of insects and bugs. Strange, precisely this year I've overcome my phobia, which means that this literature course where we have to read this book, came precisely at the right moment of my life. :) Kafka, here I come!

The book is very sad indeed. Feel like crying over Gregor Samsa. People shouldn't be trapped, they should be free.

Today we directed traffic at work. I felt like a clown there for a while, but in the end everything felt just really funny.

My champagne-golden bag is falling to pieces. I'll have to buy myself a new one. Useless thing! I only just bought it. Ironically all of my old bags are still in one piece...but hello, they're old! A woman should have lots of bags! But where do you get all that money to buy all those bags? :)

Blodeuedd: is your bag still ok?

06:20 pm: My new job etc.
Yesterday was the second introduction-day at my new work. I like the people there (at least for now), especially the one that shows me around the place. She is really nice and helpful and we laugh a lot.

Yesterday we showed the cars how to drive inside the ferry and that seemed hard at first, but actually it wasn't. Soon I'll be out there alone directing the traffic...

I feel stressed right now. For some reason a lot of people want to meet me today, but I'm tired and have a lot of homework to do, from school as well as from work. Have to learn how to use their computer programmes. Right now I have a lot of literature-courses as well, so I have to read tons of books. That's interesting but takes a lot of time. Luckily I chose the smallest and thinnest book in Norwegian, and the teacher didn't comment on it, so I'll read it.

I feel guilty telling everybody that I don't have time for them. I just know my own limits. My motto is to take time for what you do right now and concentrate on that.

So, that's what I'll try to do...

07:50 pm: Dentist's appointment
Today I had a dentist's appointment. You could think that it was nasty, but in fact it was not. I met the cutest guy in the waiting room. He was helpful and told me that the dentist hadn't called for me, when I asked him about it. I liked the guy's eyes. They looked kind.

Wonder if I'll ever see him again. :) This was a nice day.

My flat-mate is crazy, and I guess I'm a bit crazy too. The guy she's been stalking has been stalked by her stalker. That makes us both laugh like mad-men in the middle of the night. Uuuu...

06:42 pm: My new work
I've tried to edit my journal style today. It's fun, but I feel like a beginner. Nice with pink and lila etc.

Blodeuedd: It, you read this, would you tell me what you think? Better than before, right? ;) Finally found the moodpictures/smileys or whatever they're called.

On Friday was the last day at work. In the evening my college and her friend and I wanted to selebrate it, so we went to Hullupullo. It was an evening full of laughter. Still I don't feel like going out ever again, because I'm always dead-tired the next day. Despite of my tiredness I cleaned the house on Saturday at my parents' place.

On Monday I'll go and check out my new job. I'm nervous and I'm certain that when I start working there the whole place will collapse...Let's hope not.

Next week is goingto be a busy week, visiting the new work-place, helping the new secretary at my old work, doing my homeWORK, cleaning my own flat, visiting a friend's birthdayparty, buying my other friend a present, buying myself some stuff, I hope...

01:47 pm: Sunday afternoon in my broth's room
Here I am in my brother's room, writing e-mails and stuff and I thought I'd write an entry in my journal as well.

Today it's cloudy, at occations sunny and pretty warm, 17 degrees. I'm going to take a walk later on, but before that I've gotta do my homework, that is to start reading a Norwegian novel and to practice some Chinese. I'm taking a basic course in Chinese, which is REALLY interesting. The language, as well as the culture is of course totally different from ours. Ni hao!

Yesterday (Saturday) I visited Minna and we ate tacos. After that she was going to a friend's move-away-party and since I don't know him I went home and watched TV and took a walk at 10 o'clock. I was surrounded by darkness and I could watch the stars above me. Beautiful!

10:29 pm: weekend ahead
The day started a bit weird. I took on clothes I hadn't worn before and it felt as if everybody stared at me at school. The day was interesting, because I met interesting people.

Now here I'm sitting again at home on a friday evening, because I'm too tired (or old?) to do anything else. And I enjoy it being here by myself. I have my thoughts to myself and if I wanted I could write them all down here, but I don't feel comfortable doing that. Guess I'm too oldfashioned. It was my friend who said I should join Livejournal. Don't know if it's my thing since I don't seem to be able to write down my inner thoughts on the net. Guess I'm too paranoid.

I am listening to Matchbox 20, Rolling Stones and Nightwish. An odd mixture, but that's how I like it.

Soon I'm gonna go to bed. That's going to be nice. To sleep and to dream are some of my interests. :)